Check Yourself

The Lilypad-2

One of the biggest sayings that I’m not sure I like is “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger.” After countless things that left me physically healthy (thank God), but emotionally wounded, I can’t imagine how much strength it is that I need lol. Some experiences just leave me so weak. It changes me. I ponder on it countlessly. I think about it over and over to understand what happened, what could’ve been different, what could I do to change it. I easily tear up. It’s just overwhelming sometimes.

The good thing is that I’m starting to check myself. The moment my mind attempts to evaluate and rerun any situation, I clear my mind by just imagining a big open white space.  If I keep thinking about it and obsess over it, I’ll never get past it. I guess it’s hard because I’m always in my head so much. I hate it! I’m too much of a sensitive person. I have to stop badgering myself and always trying to figure it out. I’ve realized that I cannot continue to let things cloud my mind that I can’t really do much about. I can’t go back in time. Today, I actually asked Big Man to give me that never in a lifetime opportunity to go back this oneeee time! I guess I’ve officially lost it. It’s just a challenge because my heart is pure and I always have good intensions. I just want to love, be loved, have a family with the love of my life, be healthy (physically and emotionally), laugh often, travel, have amazing life experiences, be successful, and spiritually fulfilled.

Sidenote: I’ve been having a little trouble sleeping at night and something I found extremely helpful is an app called Relax & Sleep Well.

Posted by

Follower of Christ, mommy, wife, entrepreneur, emotional being, wholesome food eater, reality tv watcher, professional laugher, wisdom seeker, and human just trying to figure it all out.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s