I deal with so many different emotions, and sometimes in just one day. I read this quote the other day about how not every emotion, feeling, or thought we have needs to be addressed. I wish I would think of that when I’m angry lol. I hate that when I’m dealing with a situation, my feelings of fear, anger, and/or confusion cloud my best judgement and I do and say things that probably weren’t the best. I can’t blame the person on the other side of fence for being upset, but really, give me a break. If I could control everything, happy or sad, I would live a perfect life with perfect experiences. I hate to speak on myself, but I never have ill intentions with anyone. I don’t want to go through unpleasant situations. Who does? I’m just like everyone else. I want to be thought about, loved, and treated with care. I give that. Then, I go through a rough moment and mess up because I’m fed up. Does that mean I’m not worthy of forgiveness? It’s crazy because what I sometimes receive from the people I love or love me, I suck it up and deal it. When the shoe is on the other foot, I feel like I’m treated like what I’ve said and done is unforgivable. Unless someone is physically hurt or dead, I don’t feel like it’s the end of world. I think the problem with me is that I hold so much in and then when I get poked, intentionally or not, I explode and let out every emotion and everything I’ve ever felt. I’m working on that. It’s not healthy.